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That's what an elbow would sing if there was an ellton Elton Jh on the elbow If there was a sleep with me program, there would be a skit where an elbow that was like dressed like designed like Elton John in a probably a duck suit. and the elbow would say it would be a self soothing segment and the elbow would say, cut me gently. I'm an elbow And if but if you just tuned in, you'd say what in that what am I? and I'd say, ye, you're in the right place. This is Sleep with me. The podcast puts you to sleep And here's a couple of ways. When your hand hits that fridge tomorrow, these are the ways we're able to be here for you free twice a week Everybody Scoot is tem to talk about my bedroom companion air doctor. and I don't know if you're like me. 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This product is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure or prevent any disease Thanks everybody Heybody Scoots here and I'm checking in with you in the Dep Dark night and I'm talking about my goals for the show. And my goal is to have this podcast here and free for anybody to discover it for anybody to count on it so that it can help people. peopleeople like you in the deep dark night bring you comfort, bring you relief, maybe bring you sleep Maybe sleepy joy and delight, maybe it lets you feel less alone Or maybe don't even listen to it. It's just a friendly drone in the background. My goal is to be here for you Night after night, year after year or on call as needed and to keep these shows coming out and available to anybody. Now Pascal recently signed up to support the show and said that they thought I was an old retired dude just doing this in my free time until they realized how many people and how much work it takes to make a podcast like this And then Pascal said, you know, I've spent tons of money on useless CRA to the P and stuff I didn't even need or never even worked. Man, I have to support this podcast. It's common sense. So if you share those goals, if you want to be a part of this thing, like Pascal, this show has brought you comfort relief madeade you feel less alone in the deep dark night. You do like it being around. You do want to see it here long into the future. Please right now consider supporting the show because if you're the one Almost ready to go. You're the only one listening It really does come down to you If you share those goals, supporting the show right now. 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Don't forget if you haven't heard about surpriseed by Scooter, if you're spreading the word about the show, you're tagging me in social media or emailing me through the form on our website. I'm going surprise some people who are spreading the word about the show, just letting people genuinely know about their experience with the podcast with subscriptions to Sleep withith Me pllus, maybe a personal video Maybe some stickers, who knows? So get out there and be surprised by scoots Thanks everybody. What do you say? We get on with the show Hey, are you up all night tossing, turning, mind racing Trouble getting to sleep, trouble staying asleep, Well welcome This is Sleep withith Me, the podcast that puts you to sleep. We do with a bedtime story. All you need to do It's get in bed, turn out the lights and press play I'm gonna do the rest, what I'm going to attempt to do the rest what I'm going to attempt to is create a safe place where you could set aside whatever is keeping you awake, whether it's thoughts or feelings, like that are thoughts about the past, present, the future, feelings are related to the thoughts or just that are there Physical sensations, changes in time or temperature routine thingsings going on G Like like the like is anyone are there any metaphors relating washing machine cycles to the cycles of life? is it because there's a is there a cycle called the turbulent cycle? I mean, that's what it's like u That's whatort it's really turb. Here's one thing I know. I've never been like I've talked to my laundry before. They said, do you realize how turbulent it is in here? I say, yeah, that's how you get collan though G We say metaphorically, I'm going to wash, wash, wash that dirt right out of my clothes. But what we really mean is like we're going it's like you're dancing in water Don't look at his turbulence Look at it is empowered dancing and the washing machine is empowering you to dance that dirt right out of you I'm sorry, did my clothes just did my laundry just hang up on me? Oh boy. Hey everybody, sorry. so whatever is keeping you awake. It could be laundry That's not a joke. Keeps me awake because that's why I hung up because it said, I'll see you later because I'll be in a pile. that went from folded to non folded, but never got put away right across from your bed to remind you. O your humanity my laundry me trying to keep me humble but probably driving some sort of unhealthy ego thing since since ever, you know, always laaundry I'll this year maybe I'll send you Valentine's. It'll say alwaysways and forever Ys. O day like I don't know. if I send you somebody remind me if you're hear in this to send me a laundry to a Valentine for my laundry. That'll be what tonight's episode will be about. I can still get this out for for Valentine's Day Okay. so if you're new, you may be you may be confused already because whatever is keeping you awake, I'm here to take your mind off of it and keep you company while you fall asleep. The way I'm going to do that is by sending my voice across the deep dark andight I'm to use lulling, soothing, creaky dulcet tones, pointless meanders, superfluous tangents. which you just kind of witness there. I go off topic, I get mixed up. The podcast almost feels like it's never going anywhere Just like like the laundry says welcome my world. I see but you go a lot of places someome of it like in twenty twenty, I don't know about you into twenty twenty one. I definitely p down like I said, well, I just wash those clothes might as well wear them again. No like so some of my clothes say yeah, you're right. Okay. so I have to also include some apology letters. I guess tonight's episode could be me picking out Valentine'ess for different pieces of clothing Well this will be good. It could be a little personal essay too Anyway so that's so there's another tangent within a tangent But all that stuff is to take your mind off stuff and keep you company so you can fall asleep. A few things to know if you're new. One, this podcast is very different. It is an acquired taste, but that doesn't mean you can't acquire a taste for it And if you don't, that doesn't mean there's anything wrong. It just means youre saying, well, that's not for me or that's not for me right now. Hundreds of thousands of people have said it took two or three tries to get used to the show and now I listen every night And some of those people have said, Well, at a time three years ago, I loed you. This is a comment. I'm not even you might be laughing orre thinking, Scoot your kidding. It getiv this email every other week or a review or something say I loath you strongly No one's ever said a light I have a light loathing for you, but really maybe they did because then they said, then three years later I said, well, let me give that show a shot again. so many people like it And now listen every night, but there's people, it might be you, it doesn't work, but give it a few tries and just see how it goes. The show's free Also after a few tries, you go to sleepith mepodcast dot com slashion No thank you. There's tons of other sleepy stuff there podcasts and other audio you could kind of used to fall asleep. So those are some options but give it a few tries because if you're skeptical, if you're like me and you're full of skepticism overflowing And someone recommended the show or you heard about it or you found it on a search. you'd say, what is this grown man's going to talk in a creakyulc of tones and never get to the point and that's going to put me to sleep, but it's supposed to be a bedtime story, but the bedtime story never gets started till one third of the way through the show. And even then, I'm not sure it's going to be him picking out Valentine's for his laundry close, I guess you'd say. when when is it like That's another thing. What's the difference between laundry and clothes laundry is the laundry like I'm doing laundry is doing the verb or is laundry the is what's the subject and what's the verb There's a game show that would get cancellled that I would start I'd say what's the subject? What's the verb? Welcome I guess it would work if Sleeping me had a show though We'd follow up that Elton John cut my elbows thing with I guess I was raised by Muppets in the sesame Street. Thank goodness I was Okay, where was that though nowhere as you right where I needed to be. So give the show a few tries to see how it goes because if you tried other stuff and you're tired and stuff Yeah. and that goes into my next point, the most important point I'll ever make at all And the one I try to be the clearest about is you deserve a good night's sleep. you deserve a safe place where you can unwind comfortable and drift off and a bedtime without dread or gamar roll or all those churning feelings that I feel sometimes So if I can help provide that for you, that is very important for me. And if I can help provide that for you or point you in the right direction And so you can build from there And your life can be become more manageable as you get the sleep you need and you get that habit in place. And again, only works for me sixty percent of the time, what I'll talk about here. Maybe seventy, maybe eighty sometimes. I mean, it works when it works, but If you can get to sleep you need And your life's better. That means the world that we all live in really is a better place to be in. And It would be important like I know when I get a good nice sleep in my life somewhere manageable or when it's unmanageable I know how that feels. and I know how it feels in not to be able to sleep So that's why it's so important to me And this easy to brush off or, you know, have my internal critic is easy to put me down or whatever. So I know that the skepticism can even get stirred up there But it doesn't change the fact that you do deserve a nice safe place to unwind and a bedtime that at least you could feel neutral about. So that's what I hope I can provide. This is also a podcast you don't listen to, which is a little bit different. It's just a grade above background noise. Like it's the kind of background noise you could listen to. So that's the difference. This is a podcast you don't need to But you could So if you can't sleep, that's there's a small percentage of listeners that are listening or people that listen during the day that really need to listen and I'm here for them So if if that's you, I'm here for you all the way to the end of the episode. I work hard on this show At the same time, I think that's what works. I'll be here whether you're listening to me or not. so you can kind of listen when you need to. Or maybe that's reassuring. Sot is going to be there talking the whole time. donon't need to listen to him because he's kind of talk and Or yeah, it's podcast. I could listen to it again Also, I don't put you to sleep. believe it or not. I'm here to keep you company And because all that other stuff I said in the deep dark night to take some of the edge off And just be here, your friend in the Dep Dark Kight, your bore friend, your bore Bay, your borecas, your bore sib, your bore bestestie, your bore bud and that you could listen to or not talking drone on and on and on to take your mind off stuff The other new things that can throw listeners off is the structure of the show. and it's very, very intentionally designed, but the show can be repurposed in other ways So if you already repurposed the show, that's totally cool. I'm glad you found what works for you But if you're new, let me lay it out how it works when you first get to the show. and why the show is structured the way it is. It starts off with a greeting. Friends beyond the Binary, ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls. Then I usually say something silly So the idea is you feel welcome in, you feel seen And you know, o, the tone of the show is a little bit uh humor like humoresque as they say. close to humor. hum not humorless, humorish S Sleep with me podcast It's like nearly humor, like on one of those dials. just like when they say this is your say, oh boy, this is how you find a mate dial They pay fifty cents and says doesnn't quite get there. So that's what' my point? greeting. Oh. Oh yees, so the that's how the greeting is then there's support for the show because my goal is to have the podcast come out twice a week. for free and That's how we do it Patrons and sponsors. thenen There's support for listeners, there's support for the community around the show Then there's the intro of the podcast, which we were like maybe ten minutes into now And sometimes people can feel like that's part of the support of the show, but it's really support for listeners in a different sense The intro is the twilight of the podcast and hopefully of your evening The transition period or for a lot of listeners, their wind down time. So For a lot of people are listening, they're either in bed getting comfortable or they're getting ready for bed or they're doing some sort of other activity. And this is really what works for me. Like I said, sixty, seventy eighty percent of the time, if I have some wind down time time that I'm not trying to fall asleep, but I'm not doing anything else but meditating or journaling or reading or doodling or foam rolling. That's all the stuff I do during my windown And I'm very particular about it. But you don't have hopefully you have less less rigorous one, but that's what the podcast can enable And if you fall asleep, that's great. If you're one of the two or three percent of people that skip the intro, that's great too. Or if you're listening on Patreon and you like the story only shows, that works. But for most people, it eases you into bedtime, like a landing strip for a plane or whatever Then there's support for then there's more sponsor stuff that's just again free twice a week The listeners who support the sponsors make that possible. Then there'll be our bedtime story. I thought it was going to be one thing, but that's a great thing about recording these shows and all the like our production time I got flexibility So I can record this it's September for and set it up for February when you're hearing this. I hope And hopefully my laundry is listening now and the re listen in February. So say finally, my clothes are on my side again I didnidn't realize I had to go through well, I should have realized I had to make amends to my clothes So there's that Oh so that's the bedtime. That's like forty five, fifty minutes or so. Then there's anankues at the end of the show. So it's the structure of the show That's why I make the show. And that's what to expect. The only other thing is I can say is I'm glad you're here. I really appreciate you giving me time. I work really hard and I yearn and I strive. I really hope I can help you fall asleep. And here's a couple ways I'm able to do this for you free twice a week. 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Thanks everybody Friends beyond the binary ladies, gentlemen, boys and girls. is the second time you get to hear me say that. welcome because this episode is constructed from intro from the past and our read with me episodes here It's a Frankie and Victor episode with our friend Frank and his keep if you like. So I'm reading from the book Victor and Frankie Also known as a famous Mary Shelley novel And this is a little bit different than episodes we've done with Sleep with Me, but we tested this out and Sleep with Me pllus was so popular. We wanted to bring it to everyone So it's me reading through a book, also paraphrasing, making stuff sleepy, but it's not perfectly sleepy. I mean, just like everything else we make, you know It exists within this world, but prettytty chill, so I hope you enjoy it. And without further ado, more of Victor and Frankie. Thanks everybody Walton and continuation August to twenty sixth You've read this strange and terrific story, Margaret and do not feel Uh your your ch your tingling of your tingles, uh Like even now I can feel the goose bumpy bumpies on me on my skinny skin skin And sometimes when this dude was going on and on and on, he couldn't even keep going on and on and on Other times his voice broken yet piercing Uttered with difficulty, the words so replete with his strong feelings And ain't talking about his resilience, Margaret. you know, those feelings you could sense it just beneath His fine and lovely eyes were now lighted up with indignation and then subdued to downcast Fowny frowns and quenched an infinite wretchedness Sometimes he commanded his countenance and tones and related the most wild things I'd ever heard tranquil voice Pressing every mark of agitation Then like a volcano bursting forth, his face would suddenly change to an expression you know, where get get a little bit of hoty he may say And he would go on and on and on about this compost based being His tales connected and told with the appearance of the simplest truth yet I owe to you that the letters of Felix and Sfi which she showed to me in the apparition of this compost based being, which we saw from our ship That brought me greater conviction of the truth of his narrative then, you know, his rambling rambles However earnest and connected they were, So a compost based being then really exists. I cannot doubt it. yet I'm lost in surprise and admiration Sometimes they endeavor to gain from Frankenstein, the particulars of the building of this compost bed being But on this point, he was impenetrable What ha to tell you my secrets? he said. can't you see Gingeress in anything I said, L? You seem to have senseless curiosity without a Frankenstein level of res like I mean, resilience, he would say, as he stumbled with his words Do you have any idea where you're headed Would you also create for yourself someone Ladder creates a need for resilience. Peace of peace, learen my miseries and do not seek to increase your own. Frankenstein discovered I made notes concerning history. He asked to see them. No boy, was that? He said, I think I'll edit your notes. you corrected and augmented them in many places Principally in giving the life and the spirit to the conversations he held with the compost based being. So in the end it was his own take and my take on his take Since you preserved my narration, said he, I would not I'd prefer that, you know, a more perfect one should go down to posterity And then I, you know, sensed his need for fandom And thus a week has passed away. Well I've listened to the strangest tale that ever imagination formed My thoughts and every feeling in my soul has been drunk up by the interest for my guest which this tale and his own elevated and gentle manners had created I wish to soothe him Yet can I counsel one so infite infinitely miserable, so destitute of every hope and consolation to live? Oh no The only joy that he can now know will be when he composes his feelings And he gets that invitation. He's been awaiting or it just comes without ascending without an invitation at all cross that rainbow bridge he seems to enjoy one comfort, the offspring of solitude and his wild tales. He believes that when in dreams he holds and converses with friends And there they, you know, tend to him and and he's constantly telling me about Cloral and his dreams carrying his stuff And somehow he derives from that communion and consolation We from that Cunion Colation. for his woes or excitements to still the compost based being that they are not creations of us fancy But there are again, visitors Serving him in his dreams, inviting him in his dreams paying him visits from remote regions of the world. I mean, which is not that different if they are in another stage of existence And this fate gives solemity to his reveries that render them to me almost as imposing and interesting as truth Our conversations are not always confined to his own history in woes. every once in a while he'll make a point of gener of general literature. he's got unbounded knowledge. and piercing apprehension His eloquence is forcible and touching, nor can I hear him when he relates a pathetic incident or endeavor G too move the passions of pity or love without tears What a glorious creature he must have been in the days of his prosperity when he was thus a noble And go like in his resilience He seems to feel his own worth and the greatness of his fall When younger, said he, I believed myself destined for some great enterprise. My feelings are profound But I possessed a coolness of judgment that fitted for me illustrious achievements. This sentiment of the words of my nature supported me when others would have been You know they this again is another explanation of my resilience. They would have been too down But I deemed it worse than a mistake to throw away and useless grief those talents that might be useful to my fellow beings. When I reflected on the work I'd completed no less a one than the creation of a sens sensitive and rational of Camposter I mean, I could not rank myself with the herd of common projectors But this stwn which supported me in the commencement of my career now only serves as an example of why one would need such resilience All my speculations and hopes are nothing and like the archangel who ins inspired an omnipotence You know, I must again inspire There has to be a if you're the greatest or most resilient person in the world, there must be a reason for that. of course My imagination was vivid, yet my powers of analysis and application were intense. By the union of these qualities, I conceived the idea and created something never created before even now, I cannot recollect without passion my reveries while the work was incomplete I trod heaven in my thoughts, now exalultting in my powers, now burning with the idea of their effects From my infancy, I was imbued with high hopes and a lofty ambition, but oh I am sunk now Oh, my friend, if you would on kn once knew me as I once was. You would not recognize me. in this state lying around Even though it was portrayed many times in my ret tale, There was a time before where I did mostly lying around and telling my tale of whooa As a matter of fact, despondency rarely visited my heart. A highigh destiny seemed to bear me on. These were my teen years, by the way. which I have not mentioned up until this point until again I fell never, never, you know, never again to rise That's the heart of my resilience. I'd say. But I then Must I now lose this admirable being? I've longed for a friend. I think this is what we both share I've sought one who would sympathize with and love me. That's whatort a friend is You know They no one says the friends is one way. Friend street is one way street But you know, behold, on these desert seas I've found such a one. you But I fear I've gained him only to know his value and then get off his ship possibly without paying you anything You know, the cost of my company gifted to you enough. I mean, I would like you to be the newew Corval and Carry on with me forever I thank you, Walton, he said kind intentions towards Such a wretch' eye No, but you when you speak of new ties and fresh affections thinkink you that any can replace those who are gone I mean, could you ever be to me as Clorvill was or any wom woman other than Elizabeth even where the affections are not strongly moved by any superior excellence The companions of my childhood maybe yours, I don't know, always possess a certain power over our minds which hardly any later friend can obtain I mean, could I call you Lesser Clorville? L Cor like V Val. Can I call you Val instead of Walton V you know are Anyway, you know, the old friends of mine They knew my infantine dispositions which however, they may be afterwards modified, are never eradicated and they can judge of our actions with more certain conclusions as to the integrity of our motives A sister or brother or sibling can never, unless indeed such symptoms have been shown early think the person was not engaging in false dealing When another friend, you know down the road like you win Unless you become Vil, You know, however strongly they may be attached may in spite of themselves, you know, contemplate with me Let's see the whole me evenven when I repeatedly try to tell you how great I am and what I've been through But I enjoyed friends dear not only through habit and association, but from their own merits And wherever I am, the soothing voice of my Elizabeth and the conversation of Clervill will be ever whispered in my ear They've moved on from me But one feeling in such solitude can persuade me to persevere If I are engaged in any high undertaking or design, you know, something that would be extensive utility to my fellow beings. then it could, you know, I could probably rise to the task. It would have to be one of the greatest tasks ever given to anyone I mean, after all of done, you know But I don't know if that's my destiny I still got to catch that compost based being to whom I gave existence. thenen my lot on earth will be fulfilled. And my next letter to my sister read like this. Beloved sister, september second. I write to you now I don't even know. I can't even I don't even barely can put it into writing When I see deer England again in the deer friends that inhabited We got ice all around us and they should have never got us into this the brave people who work on this ship that I persuaded to be my companions look to me But I have no way to convince them all as well And it's not a great situation, but my courage and hopes do not deserve me I mean, desert me I was at a slip with my dear sister I don't know, though I can't believe that I went along with any of this and brought any people in with it. And what Margareine? will be the state of your mind reading my letter Will you hear news afterwards? that I Like all who cross Frankenstein's path changed existences years will pass and you'll have visitings and you'll wonder You may off on an adventure with Frankenstein, having fun. My beloved sister I know you hope that to see me yet again But donon't worry, you have a husband and lovely children and you yet may be happy. Heaven bless you and make you so My unfortunate guest regards me with the tenderest compassion. He endeavors to fill me with hope and talks as if if life were a possession which he valued He reminds me often of how this is where resilience is formed been other navigators who has attempted to go this way So there's got to be a first time for you to make somebody to make it through. And in spite of myself, he fills me with cheerful auguries Even the sailors feel the power of his eloquence when he speaks, they no longer despair He rouses their energies. and while they hear in his voice They believe the vast mountains around us are just Hills that will vanish below before the resolutions of him. these feelings are transitory. Each day of expectation delayed fills people with Fowny faces And know, I'm sure they're very fed up My dear sister Same letter, sister. This is september fifth though The scene has just passed of such uncommon interest at that Although it is highly probable these papers You might never read. I got to write it down I cannot forbear recording it We're surrounded by ice and ice sculptures and snow. And it's chilly here And uh Many people are fed up with me for going along with this guy And it's a bit desolate and Frankenstein has gone back pattern he said and kind of never thought where he just lays around He does a lot of sleeping But something still glimmers in his eyes. when he said he's so tired from Sting resilience And you know, making speeches to all of us So he's exhausted, but then he's suddenly roused to exertion when we need it, you know we see we could use one more pair of hands here And he says, okay, but now I got to lie back down. If you want carrots for dinner, somebody's got to peel the carrots so you know Yeah You can't spoon the food into your mouth But the spoon is so darth heavy Sorry, sister. I'm delving into Anyway, I mentioned in my last letter I said last piece of my diary that I think the crew fed up with me This morning, I sat watching the countenance of my friend. hisis eyes half closed. He's laying around And about half dozen of the sailors knocked on the door and they said, canan we come in and they entered and theyress the leader addressed me, told me that he and his companions had been chosen by the other sailors to come in in deputation and to make to me a requisition which injustice I could not refuse You know, we're sitting here on this ice waiting for his compomost based being. And they were wondering if the ice what if the ice melts and u like we can start moving again. wouldould I continue helping out this guy Yeah You know, in this futile quest or could I engage in a solemn promise that once we get moving I would direct our course southward This speech troubled me I had not despaired nor I had yet cons conceived of the idea of returning if set free C I injustice or even in possibility refuse this demand I hesitated before I answered when Frankenstein, who had been at first to silence, indeed appeared hardly to have the force to speak or maybe he was pretending to be asleep Certainly set up His eyes sparkled and his cheeks flushed with momentary vigor. Turning towards the manen, he said What do you mean? What do you mean? what We demand of your captain mayaybe you all don't have the resilience I thought you possessed so easily turned from your design Sailors you spell saailors Q U I T R Ss? Did you not call this a glorious expedition you signed up for with me Are we all not friends? best friends? Do not know terms of our friendship And wherefore was it glorious? notot because of the way it was smooth and placid as the southern sea becausecause it was filled with unpleasant trees after unpleasant tree And with every new unpleleasantry, your fortitude was to be called forth, Y courage exhibited Be of the challenges I placed in your path on purpose to help all of you and to show that you were brave enough to overcome them That isn't meaning besides so within the word I've used over and over again For this was it a glorious in an honorable undertaking that I chose I put myself through for the growth of all of you You were hereto afterfter to be hailed as the benefactors of every human in the world, legends Your name's adored is belonging to brave people You took every step for honor and the benefit of all human beings And now Behold, with the first imagination, the first chance to change your mind, it's not even here. first real trial of your courage, you shrink away and are content to be handed down as people who had strengths and not enough to endure a couple comomfortable moments. Oh dear It's no wonder I sleep all day Just a world chili. Maybe we need to get you all home to your warm firesides. Why that requires not this preparation. You need not have come thus far and talked to your captain to embarrass all of yourselves to the shame of a defeat merely to prove yourself on Worsday Be ye strong O be you more than strong Be steady to your purposes and firm as a rock This ice is not made of such stuff as your hearts may be. It is mutable cannot withstand you if you say that it shall not Or would youer prefer to return home disgraced her With that disgraced mark as furrows on your brows I mean, you could return a hero who have fought and conquered and who know not what it is to turn their backs on the world and bravery and greatness. Resilience and fortitude. Frankenstein spoke this with a voice so modulated to the different feelings expressed in his speech W ey so full of lofty design and heroism Can you wonder that these men were moved They looked at one another and when they were unable to reply I spoke, I told them to retire and consider what had been said and that I would not lead them farther north if they strenuously desired the contrary, but I hoped that with reflection, their courage would return For who is not more courageous than those who would engage in a pointless operation based on the sweet words of a guy that lies around resting all day long You didn't say that part out loud though, sister. They retired and I turned towards my friend, but he, you know, he had to rest. He made a speech So he needed to rest and I needed to cleur to him or ofall to him. How will this end? I know not, but I'd rather not return. like he said, I consider myself full fortitude this unfilled But yet I fear that will be my fate You know, all all the sailors unsupported by ideas of glory and honor Maybe they don't have the mind of this my friend and they can never willingly continue to endure All right, dear sister, september seventh, the die is cast. I've consented to return if the ice melts Thus are my hopes blasted by cowardice and indecision, come back ignorant and disappointed It requires more philosophy than I possess to bear this injustice with patience september twelfth, my dear sister, it is past. I am returning to England. I have lost my hopes of utility and glory And where I thought I had a best friend. I have a best friend no more That's how our taail started out I thought I had a friend who needed me. But I will endeavor to detail these bitter circumstances to you, my dear sister while I'm wafted towards England and towards you I will not despond. On September ninth, the ice began to move and roarings were heard at a distance as it cleared up And we waited. my attention was occupied, you know, instead of being on the ship, it was on my guest who needed even more sleep and soup spooned into his mouth You also need me to sing to him and and then correct my singing Read him my writing so he could correct my writing and also sort of but play out place for him as you know sometimes I think I was being his dreams He'd say to me, talkalk to me as Cveral And then I would do that. And then later he would give me notes and say, no, no, no U grab are you ready to go? Shall I grab all your things Victor So that went on and on and on. But I guess you know, they needed me on the ship because we're being pushed north and then a breeze is spraying from the west. And then around the tenth, eleventh, the passage toward the south became perfectly free And when the sailors saw this and that return home was apparently assured, a shout of tumultuous joy from them Loud and long continued. Door was not happy about this at all He woke from dozing and asked the cause of the tumult What are they yelling about? Are they telling tales about me? singing song? They've never sung songs about me. Is it time for them to sing a victor They shout, I said, because they will soon return to England But did you really return then? I thought we were best friends and brave friends How long I've been asleep for? The last yes, I cannot withstand their demands. I cannot unwillingly keep leading them on if they don't wish to I must return Okay, that's fine. Don't worry about me at all. I'm fine. I'll get up right now. And I mean, you may give up on your purpose. You may not have fortitude, but mine becausecause yours is just regular fortitude I guess that's the difference between fortitude and resilience or neither for all of you Mine is assigned to me by heaven So I can't just turn my back on it's I am weak, but surely those who assist me will endow me with sufficient strength much stronger than all of you. A friendshippp Sing this, he endeavored to spring from the bed, but the exertion was too great for him and he fell back U and said Oh no, u I must rest before I can be resilient But it was long before he was restored And I said I couldn't necessarily tell if you're sleeping or dozing or faking it Even though I wanted to believe he was resting and he's going to lift the ship up or whatever. After some timee he opened his eyes, but he was making he was, you know, making noises and stuff. And he said, Bring me a dot U and I need and then I need to be undisturbed. was in my forge. you, you know, stuff about his skin the iron of my you know, strength and all that stuff. In the meantime U I was I didn't even know what to say So I said, o, this guy. Everybody said Forget about Victor man. He's not your friend give up on the friendship. in direct and indirect ways, they said, Don't you realize it now, man J what are you can do? Everybody tried to tell me So I could only grieve what I thought was going to be my best friendship. I sat by his bed watching him. his eyes were closed. I thought that he slept But then he called to me in a feeble voice bidding me come closer and said Alas The strength I relied on is gone I feel that compost space being will have victory Sink not Walton that had a I didn't, you know, I couldn't have gone and gotten him without all of your help But uh Yeah. I mean, I guess I'm not going to be able to You know over the last few days, I've been occupied and examining my past conduct And I don't find it blamable In a fit of genius enthusiastic genius, I created a rational being, compost based being, who was bound towards him to ensure as far as was in my power, his happiness and well being That was supposedly my duty There was another still paramount to that My duty to all the humans of the world And that had greater claim to my attentions because they do more stuff for me than the compost based being ever did. urged by this view. I made him promises, didn't keep those promises totally on purpose, totally not made promises in his opinion only. And I was right to do that First he asked me to create a companion for him. But he showed selfishness in that and You know, he just wanted stuff for him, not for me And then he talked to all my friends and family and said to go to another realm without inviting me kind of like having a birthday party where I wasn't inv for me that I wasn't invited to And then saying we didn't it wasn't a birthday party for that happened once. that's why Is it is this where it all came from They had a party on my birthday I wasn't invited to the party And I said, you didn't invite me to my birthday party And they said, no, this is a separate party unreated. When's your birthday I guess that was a dream my had. I said today, the day of this party, I was not invited to And they said Well, you can't be here anyway. like go you know go out on your boat or whatever Victor I said, Father, Corvill Partying without me, Elizabeth, Are you dancing and laughing William Are those toys your're opening gifts Is that cake you're blowing out candle, son probably can be related to the compo space being, you know, doing those things Yeah You know, those were the ones that were supposed to provide me with exquisite sensations, happiness and wisdom I don't know where the I don't know where any of this ends That miserable compost being I believe he's still out there And I couldn't find a crew courageous enough to help me supposed to spread them around But I failed failed to try. I should have picked another ship, I guess to rescue me But when actuated by selfish and weak motives you know, I said u Maybe I was in a weeak spot and I needed help from a friend. Iperfect motives I may have had asked you to be my friend and help me with my unfinished work and ever helped you to renew I I got to ask you again really, But right now, I'm only induced by reason and virtue, not by selfishness as I may or may not have been before Can't you relate to that birthday party story? Does that work on you But I can't ask you to renounce your country and your friends and your ship to fulfill this task. Now that you're all running home to England I guess you will have a little chance of meeting with the compost being. I mean, maybe talalking to him But the consideration of these points and the well balancing of what you may esteem your duties, leave leave it to your best judgment, I guess Walton You know, my judgment and ideas is already disturbed I that dream about a birthday party I wasn't invited to and many other disappointments I dare not ask you to do what I think writes I may still be misled passassion you know, that that compost base being should be around to be instrument of mischief out there in the world What if he's going to keep doing that What if that dream was real? He's going around planning parties for people on their birthdays they're not invited to making the party so good People forget about the person who wasn't invited that it even is their birthday That's what that Co space beings can be doing in the world while you and your crew run home att the very least, But don't worry soon I'll be rewarded by Greatness is about to be recognized. momentarily I expect my release My invitation Like I said, a higher calling will be calling and celebrating my fortitude and resilience. And'll be a happy one. The only happy one I've enjoyed for several years you know, the family and friends that who did many things without me I, uh Maybe mayaybe I'll have my own party in another realm in a haven haveaven realround that they're not invited to. Well, Fareallel, Walton. I mean, I hope you seek happiness and tranquility, probablybably best for you to avoid ambition in your crew becausecause even if it only be the apparent innocent one of distinguishing yourself in science and discoveries Probably not none of arek capable, huh What why do I say this I mean, I've been let down, but I thought I was resilient. maybe Someone else could succeed where I have not. Maybe somebody's greater than me. U if they would continue on like this And Victor got quieter as he spoke though because his speeching you his speeching would tire him out And about a half an hour afterwards, he again attempted to speak but was and wasn't able to And uh But he was dreaming and smiling, Margaret. Margaret, what comment can I make on the untimely U like with that my friend like he he's so soundly asleep and I still wanted to talk to him I was hoping you would encourage me What can I say that will enable you to understand the depth of my feelings I'm even writing this, Margaret, you may be thinking What was what were you thinking, my dear brother All that I would can express here is just inadequate and feeble And at the time when he said yeah, I prefer that you did everything and I'm going rest U my tears flowed. My mind was overshadowed by a cloud of disappointment Or maybe mine was the still waters reflecting the clouds of his disappointment in the sky And yeah, Margaret' a journey towards England I hope that I may find consolation there And I'm interrupted What do these sounds pretend? It's midnight The breeze blows fairly And then the watch on deck, they hardly stir But I hear the sound of a voice it's kind of raspy, almost like dry leafy or wet leafy. I don't know And it comes from the cabin where Victor is resting I'm sitting here writing a letter. I should go down and check it out. Good night, my dear sister. Goodness a gravy whereas they say in the future holy Toledo or Ashkash Bh What a scene has just taken place, my dear sister, I am dizzy with remembrance of it I hardly know whether I shall have the power to detail it yet the tale which I have recorded would be incomplete without this final and wonderful development. I entered the cabin where Victor was resting, my admirable friend was my poor my friend was just so resilient but not by, you know, having to be resilient because of fate And when I walked in the room sitting at his bedside was something I cannot Google, I can but because of the tail, I can find words to describe it, but I couldn't Even through Viictor's tail, I couldn't have imagined it. The stat are much bigger And differentnce and I was different like shaped like a person but rounded And was Gre like a is Sentient to u anthropomorphized. I guess that was a part that mixed me up anthropomorphides, but also yet a heap of compost And it's like nothing I'd ever seen before because you know, at our time, we don't have fragle rock, but it looks different than that fragle roock even. Now. Is he send this cross? Is I like? O just imagine I never said that dear sister. I don't know what that meant. It was a dream I had. dream that I was down in Frag was hf Fragle Rck or down in Fragle Rck This is is for another day, my dear sister. And the compost just seemed sad whispering to Victor Never did I behold a vision so So earth and And maybe loom me u And I said, I'm not sure I like this. Now I know what Victor is I may have said that out loud too. Now I know Victor is talking about I shut my eyesoluntily I shut my eyes involuntarily and endeavored to recollect what were my duties regarding the compost based being because I hadd forgotten my mind had gone blank And I said, whoa, whoa, whoa, buddy, whereere are you headed? U What's what's the hurry And the compost be being paused One hand on the window and looked back at me with wonder againgain turning towards the Victor He seemed to forget my presence and every feature and gesture seemed instigated by some passion deep within An invitation. he said I I didn't bring I didn't never gave him an invitation. And now I feel bad. I didn't I purposely made sure his family did not invite him They did do that And now I see him resting and trying to make it, you know, he's ready to go he's going but he's not not invited. Oh Victor a generous and self devoted being What do did I guess he wrote this for me? How is this on this paper Oh let me start again ship person as the compost being I may have wrote this Ton or his, you know, to give him what he what he wished O Victor, generous and self devoted being. What does it avail that I now ask thee to pardon me Yeah. who irretrivably Gy wrong to the by making sure your whole family moved on without you All thou that lovest thou the most Alas I know you cannot answer me. And I know forgiveness I doth not deserve I do hence bow down at your side In the beat comombo space being my sister, his voice was It was real. It was He was choked up And my first impulse is which should suggested I should do a Victor do what Victor said Victor was going to do that he never did. and then he told me I needed to do it You know, his request and spread the compost around I said, shouldhould I be spreading this compost around? Those desires were suspended by a mixture of curiosity and compassion. I approached this tremendous being. I dared not raise my eyes to the the face of the compost. Since it was somewhat unth earthy Ethly. I mean, even though it's made from earth, you know what I'm saying? my dear sister, I guess you don't tempted to speak but the words would not come across my lips. in the compost base being continuered continued what I thought was incoherent self reproaches. At length I gathered a resolution to address him pause of the tempest of his passion. Your repentance, I said, is now superfluous. If he had listened to the voice of conscience and heed the strings of remorse before you had urged You're, you know, your unyielding jealousy of Victor. to this extremity would either be here in his greatness or with everybody that desired his love. I think I was reading that correctly as Victor had left it for me to say And do you dream? said the compost based being? Do you think that I didn't have any feelings of remorse He continued, pointing to Victor Tell me how many What real needs did Victor have for fortitude and resilience? Oh Not the ten thousandth portion of the anguish that was mine this whole tale Yes, yes. I was selfish And uh And yeah, I have a heart now full of remorse I think of Corvill playing music in another realm without Victor carrying bags for other people. being a best friend to someone else You know, my heart was fashioned to be susceptible of love and sympathy and And when wretched by misery to vice So it's not easy for me. Everybody just acts like all I am is compost All a is rotten leaves That's all you could see But yes, there are some rotting leaves within me orre on the outside too, I guess after I talk Clervland leaving Switzerland for the next realm without Victor I went to Switzerland and I was a bit down. I felt guilty about it because I knew Victor needed him to need, you know, Victor needed him And Victor needed him to need him Pittied him. And I pied and then I double I pittied I didn't exactly pity. I pittied then I pretend I was Victor pitying Clerval for being without Victor And you know, when I saw about that and when I discovered that he, the author at once of my existence and of mypleleasant new like journey dared hope for happiness through people like Corville you know, that u He accumulated, you know, his resilience was made me frown He sought his own enjoying and feelings of passion and indulgence, you know, which I couldn't partake in I wasn't going to be a part of it h. Was I jealous of Corvill, This is what I'm saying at different times I wondered You know, that I was barred from Victor's heart And I had impotent envy Bitter indignation And that's what drove me u to call, you know, create a situation where Yeah. I had to look at myself and I thought about it out there on the ice and I resolved that it should be accomplished anyway And I knew I was preparing myself for something that by all means was incorrect. But uh This impulse I detested, yet I could not disobey it And then I did it again and again. I said I said, Hey, don't you w you know, I whispered to each of his family. I mean, Clorvill wasn't the first nor the last In order to do that, I had to cast off all feelings and subdue all anguish And I guess these acts became good to me. And trust me, if you see the people without Victor You might wonder have I not Doss done good But you would say, well it's another realm. So I said you're right the The means with which we judge our actions here in this world Hence not apply And so yeah, maybe my logic is limited But to me these acts were good, and urged thus far had no choice but to adapt my nature to an element which I had willingly chosen The completion of my design became an insatiable passion and now it is ended like we're already guess in. I mean, I like it looks like I was going to make a fake invitation for Victor. And then tell him was fake after he read it Luckily I hadn't been able to enact to that So I guess I feel guilty and disappointed at the same time because it's here in my leaf somewhere My sister, I was touched refers by the expressions of this being's misery Yet when I called to mind what Victor had said of his powers of eloquence and persuasion and when again cast my eyes about my room room and then I thought about the fake invitation My indignation was rekindled within me. Wretch, I said. It is well that you come here to whine overver the desolation you have made You sit there and you waste you waste you waste your waste, you write invitations to the fake invitations O to deliver them in falsehood You sit in the ruins of a party you never planned and lament the fall